Updates

Hi All,

Sorry I have not been posting here. I have been in Cancerland, which is no wheres as fun as it sounds. It's scary, lonely and miserable at times. I am very blessed though to have my husband, family and friends to help me through. I have another long infusion coming up Wednesday. The long infusions are the infusions that make me sick :-P  So not looking forward to that.

Update, I had my wonderful husband buzz my head while my mother-in-law held my hand. Hair was coming out by the handful and I refused to sit there miserable crying every time hair came out. It does not look as bad as I thought it would. I even went hatless in Target. I did not get any stares, it was not as bad as I thought it would be.

I am going to try to update this blog more often.

For my chemo brothers and sisters. Chemo sucks doesn't it? Just think of it this way. Yeah chemo makes you sick and saps your energy but just think. While it is doing all that; it is killing the cancer too! We just have to hang in there through all the crap. If we do that we will kick cancer bootay!!

That is all for now,

-I Fight Like a Woman

Chemo Sucks

Hi All,

Sorry for the delay in posting. Chemo is kicking my butt, more importantly it is kicking the Cancers butt, hopefully a lot worse than mine!

Peoples reaction and side effects to Chemo varies widely; some have no issues at all, others have every side effect in the book and then some. I am in the middle, Thank God.

During chemo I may be less active on this blog, it takes focus most times just to get through the day. For instance, today I have this sour taste in my mouth that will not go away, it is making me nauseous and driving me crazy. Trying to find a drink to tame the taste will probably take a significant part of my day.

to my chemo bros and sisters hang in there. I know there are days where I do not know how I am going to get through this. The only thing that keeps me going is my husband, I am going to grow old with that man, so somehow I will make it through this!

That is all for now,

I Fight Like a Woman

I do not feel like blogging today

However as promised I am going to keep blogging through this journey. Today I saw the oncologist, my first infusion is Wens. They will be injecting three chemo drugs into my body with a bunch of other stuff. Hopefully the benadryl will make me sleepy. My mother in law is coming into town to help me through this, thankfully. I am so blessed with wonderful family and friends.

When I met with the oncologist today she told me that this is not fair, she called it a nightmare, which it is. But, I realized something, with nightmares you eventually end up waking up. For the next 6 months, I will be undergoing chemo therapy; then maybe radiation while continuing on infusions of one drug for one year. At some point I will have surgery. I will make it!

That is all for now,

-I Fight Like a Woman

Rough Day

Well it is official the cancer has spread to my lymph node. I have done a lot of crying today as you can imagine. The rest of this week is going to be spent doing chemo prep. Monday, my birthday I am having a port put in. How sucktastic is that?? At least I will get some good drugs on my birthday :-p

So on tap for the rest of this week: Drs. appointments, pre-op (for the port), Dental appointment (shutter), cleaning, sanitizing, bleaching my home. Friday eve hanging with my buddy Liz, shopping! This weekend pre-chemo cut and possible color, shall I go purple,, anyone??? Must buy hats and put together my chemo kit.

I am currently taking recommendations for headwear. I would love to wear a faux fur hat to work hehehe.
This is happening so fast, I am terrified but relieved to be working towards getting this cancer out of my body. DEATH to this cancer!!!!

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For those that are going through the same thing. I am so sorry (((hug))). It feels awful doesn't it? It is okay to cry, you are still strong you will still beat this. If you are about to need chemo and need a chemo buddy, e-mail me. Or you can just keep up with my blog. Is chemo a little farther in your future, watch my blog, I will lay it all out here for you to see; you will know what to expect. You are not alone. We can do this!

My Biopsy and a quote

Hello All,

Yesterday I went in for my biopsies. Had taken a Valium before I left; unfortunately I had such a long wait that it had worn off by the time I was called into the back. So they did the ultra sound scans. The Radiologist came in and told me that my left breast looked fine, in fact they could barely see anything there via ultrasound. However, he did see some concerning lymph nodes in my right side, so he biopsied them. I asked if he thought there was any chance that there is no cancer in the nodes. He said more than likely the cancer has spread to those lymph nodes, so bummer. That would be automatic chemo.

Results will be in by my next appointment Tuesday. Depending on what the Surgeon decides I may be having surgery Wens.

So now I am prepping for a whirl wind of treatment. So many questions, surgery or chemo first? How much work will I miss? Will I be able to see The Hobbit in theatre? Will I look strange with a purple pixie cut? Will I learn to draw eye brows? Will there ever be world peace? Will the world end Dec 21st making all this a moot point? Will my evil cat take over the world? Are sporks really going to be our best weapon during the zombie Apocalypse? Will I beat this Cancer?

I do not know the answers to any of these questions except for the last one. YES I will beat this cancer, I will kick its bootay!!!

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For my BC sisters and brothers! Yes, men get breast cancer too...A quote...

"You can get so confused that you'll start in to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place. The Waiting Place..." Dr. Suess from Oh, the Places You'll Go!

I can identify with this so much right now. I was diagnosed and so gung ho trying to figure out this maze, going to Drs. appointments, testing, getting all of this information. And along the way I am stuck in this waiting place. Waiting to find out what the next step of my treatment will be, how bad this cancer really is. The good news is the waiting place does not last forever, we need to power through and then time will come for action. We will go through our treatments and we will win this war... And just so you know the story in Oh, the Places You'll Go! ends with success. "And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)" And if you do not quit and keep going on the chance of success goes up! I am ready to push through and beat this thing 100 percent guaranteed!

That is all for now,

I Fight Like A Woman!