Still recovering/planning for surgery

Hi All,

I am still recovering from big chemo number 6. Cannot believe I made it through, yeow! Anywho, still dealing with feeling crappy, I think I have thrush again. At least I can get that addressed when I see my oncologist again tomorrow.

As I mentioned in previous blogs surgery is the next step in this process. It is very scary because my husband and I are making a choice that will change me forever. Our choices (currently) Lumpectomy with Radiation (and that is if a scan says it is okay), Mastectomy or Double Mastectomy. Many women have said that they would do the Double Mastectomy. I think I would say the same if I were in their position. But, these are my breasts, part of me. I dreamed that one day they would nourish my future children, now they can kill me; heck one has already tried! The thing that makes this choice more difficult is that I do not think I would qualify for immediate reconstruction because we do not know how many lymph nodes had/have cancer in them. If I have over a certain amount of lymph nodes effected I will need radiation and they just do not do reconstruction before radiation. So I could face being boobless or a one boober for awhile. Not fun. So I have been exploring the internet looking up breast forms, bras etc. Information about recovery times from different procedures etc. It is all very sad and scary. But in the end I will make the hard choices and reach my goal of growing old with my husband.

I am going to try to start posting to this blog more often now that I am past chemo, so check back for updates.

On a positive note I got hair trying to come back in!!! So its time for hairwatch 2013!!! hehehe. I will keep you updated and post pics of my progress! After chemo hair can come in differently. So... will my hair come in curly or straight? what color will it be? will I just dye it anyways. We will see. I am going to try and have fun with this part.

That is all for now,

-I Fight Like A Woman